Testimony of His Love

When I first started on this journey with the mentoring program, I had no idea what I was in for. I knew in my heart it would be good but, didn’t know it was a process before it would be. My mentor, Barbara and I embarked on this Love Dare journey with our Father and He led us in and through this whole entire process. He told me that He wants me to take the things in the Love Dare book and do them on my mother in love. Minus a few love dares because it was written for married couples. He spoke so many things to me about healing and restoration. Yes, at first I was doing it because I wanted to be obedient but, I knew that I was totally holding back until about week 20. This is where I started to see a change in my own heart that I never expected to see. I figured I would do all of this stuff and GOD would change my mother in love!! WRONG!! His plan was not quite what I thought. I did all of the dares and more and in that process I lost my life of following my own heart and embraced my new life of leading it, and HE changed ME!! He did such a miraculous healing and restoration and filled my heart and life with a love for my mother in love that was completely unexplainable. It was ONLY HIM who could’ve done it. He showed me things about my mother in love that I never knew from HIS prospective. Yes, He asked me to do things that I didn’t want to do. And face some things that I didn’t want to face. Although I did struggle with accepting that He was asking me to sacrifice myself, my life, my way of thinking and my way of doing things, for Him. I always gave into what He asked of me. I learned that just because you break the curses and cast out the demons once the healing has taken place that it doesn’t mean everything is now better. I had to do something different. I had to walk in love, HIS LOVE. I had to walk it out and He has been with me every step of the way. I learned that I have to do something different in order for things to be different and that meant laying my heart on the line every time. Now that this journey has ended in a way, my new journey has begun with my mother in love. We are both working on our relationship and have both overcome the barriers that were placed before us. I went to church with her today and she held my hand during service. That was the moment that I knew that I knew that I knew that He has changed both of our hearts for HIS GLORY!! Was it worth the sacrifice to choose to love someone even when they don’t know how to love you? ABSOLUTELY, I am a life that was completely changed by HIS LOVE. He is the only one that deserves to be praised. THE ONLY ONE!! Thank you Lord for loving me FIRST!!